I don't know if many people struggle with this, but it is an ongoing thing for me.  I know who I want to be, inside and out.  I recognize both my strengths and weaknesses.  One of my greatest weakenesses however is self discipline.

I know that to be the person I want to be on the outside, I need to exercise.  Why do I have so much trouble just doing it?!  On mornings that I get up before everyone else and use the treadmill and eliptical machines or go for a walk, I feel so much better.  Why can't I just get my ass out of bed like that every morning?!

If I just jump out of bed as soon as the alarm goes off, I'm good to go.  Unfortunately, my hubby sleeps by the alarm and either hits the snooze or turns it off entirely.  I then think of every excuse in the book as to why I should get 15 more minutes of sleep.  Once the day gets rolling along, it is 10PM and I never did exercise.

As far as making changes to the inner me, I feel I have a little less work to do.  I have some spiritual searching to do and I would like to broaden my knowledge base.  I need to make more time for reading.  My husband always reads in bed.  Once I finally get to bed, I am out like a light.

I think I might be too content with myself in general.  I have to remind myself that I am truly unhappy with the way I look because I generally feel good and feel good about myself as a person.  I need a kick in the butt about getting rid of the flab and getting into shape.  I just don't know why I have such a hard time with that.

I also wish I were a more organized person.  I too often put stuff aside for quick clean up and don't ever do any serious organizing.  I always feel I don't have the time.  There are obviously plenty of people who make the time.  Why am I not one of those people?

I used to think I just put everyone else before myself and that is why I never seemed to get the stuff done that I felt needed to get done.  I do still drop stuff for my husband and kids.  Weekends are mostly eaten up with spending time with friends and/or family.

We didn't take a vacation last Summer and are taking a couple of weeks this time around.  Maybe I can steal some alone time to organize my thoughts and work out a schedule for getting things organized.  Wish me luck!